Wala daw pera sa pagpipinta, yan ang sabi nila..
I always knew I wanted to be an artist, or a designer.. Basta it has something to do with arts and being artistic. In highschool, gustong gusto ko yung mga projects na pinapadrawing ka weather there’s a theme or not. Pati yung nagleleterring ng front page ng mga reports. I remember na lagi nagpapaleterring yung mga classmates ko sakin, hindi pa kasi uso ang computer noon and kung meron man ang mahal magpaprint lalu na kung colored. I also taught my younger brother how to draw, ngayon mas magaling pa siya sakin and an upcoming architect.
People always ask me, ano natapos mo? Ako naman sasagot Nursing po. The next question would be, oh sayang naman bakit hindi mo ipractice malaki sweldo diyan lalu na sa ibang bansa.. Every conversation will go something like this, sayang daw. There was a time when I thought that I wanted to be a nurse, dahil maganda isipin na you can save lives and because its a very promising and rewarding profession. Pero naisip ko lang yun nung narealize ko na no one believes in me and my talent. I even started doubting myself kung may talent ba talaga ako. Its not like singing or dancing, yun kasi yung mga obvious na talent eh..
I guess we were brought up to believe na mag-aral mabuti para yumaman. Para yumaman kailangang magkaroon ng magandang trabaho, to be an Engineer, a Doctor, a Nurse, a Lawyer. High paying jobs ika nga. I guess there’s nothing wrong with that, but its just that no one really told us how to be happy. Alam mo yun, yung tanong na- Saan ka ba masaya? I guess it wasn’t relevant at that time.
Nakapagtapos ako ng nursing at pumasa sa licensure exam, but I never practiced it. I tried but I guess the heart wants what it wants, kasi babalik at babalik ka parin dun sa passion mo no matter how old you are. I’m happy kasi yung mga parents ngayon pinaprioritize narin nila yung hobbies ng mga anak nila. They engage them in different sports and art activities, even gardening and farming. More and more people are going back to basics. I can never change the past but I can do something about my future.
Every year we have thousands if not millions of senior high students thinking what they really want to take for college. For me its important to ask first what makes them happy, what’s their passion… because no matter what happens they will be successful in what they do. I have been working since I was 19 years old and there were a lot of days where I had to drag myself to work, I felt so stressed and depressed na sometimes hindi ko na alam kung bakit. Alam kong hindi ako nag iisa, madami sa atin na nagigising nalang isang araw at hindi na sila masaya sa trabaho nila. Sabi nga ni Confucius – ” Choose a job you love and you will never have to work a day in your life.” Tama nga siya.Though madami din namang blessed kasi alam na nila what they want to be ever since and they chased their dreams. They became exactly it and are still enjoying their chosen profession.
Not being able to pursue arts was one of my regrets in life but I don’t blame anyone, not even myself. I always believe that things happen for a reason. I might have taken the long road but I’m grateful for meeting a lot of awesome people along my journey. Hindi parin huli ang lahat para magsimulang magpinta at gumuhit.. Though I’m a bit rusty I don’t mind relearning it all over again besides its all worth it.